THIS MAY TRIGGER SO TAKE CARE
So there you go. Did it work? No it did not.
I thought you were supposed to help when you came in to see how I was doing. I'm a bit calmer now, I have read your sheet which isnt totally negative but why not say some of this? i sat there, feeling like a failure the whole way through. just a positive from you could have helped that. you made me feel like a failure. i wanted to lock myself in the loo and cut. but i didnt because of where i was. i wanted to again later, alone in the room whilst you were in the meeting. i didnt though, something stopped me. whatever it was thank god. i think people would have been visiting me in A&E if I hadnt. I said a prayer and it was answered, i just wish I had more support here now. why dont i phone you now?
because i will cry and scream. i think i need to have some human company right now or i may turn to other things. does anyone care enough? didnt think so.
so next time you make me feel like a failure, remember this. i take things to heart yes and act on them but i also beat myself up about them. and sometimes so badly that the result has stayed with me for days. i dont want to go any lower than I currently am!
someone HELP
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