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Terrified - reality no longer exists.
When I walked from my study room to my bedroom, I nearly had a heart attack when I could hear footsteps and whispering (nobody else was in the house at the time), and a shadow dashed across the corridor. I am scared of the people hidden in my room and the people in my head. I found myself talking to them today. I have music on right now, trying to drown out the noises and whispering I keep hearing, but its not working. I'm on olanzapine 10mg, but its not working. I don't understand why all these medications I'm trying aren't working any more. There are people behind me with guns, ready to shoot me. The people in my head are watching every move that I make, every word that I type. I am scared. My music sounds distorted, like someone's messed about with my speakers. OH MY GOD. I am terrified.
Reality no longer exists. I'm back in Imaginary World again. I'm back on the acid-trip-without-taking-acid again.
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