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Guilt
Ok please bare in mind that what i say in this post is just something i've heard through heresay. My sister B is married with 2 children. She lives with her husband, 2 children and friend K. K is also my sister J's best friend.
Anyway last weekend B had an arguement with her husband. My mum told me that because of this arguement B was going to SU. Now my mum is known for chatting bollocks. So yesterday I saw J and asked if she knew what happened. I didn't wanna ask B herself cause i don't know if she'd be happy with me knowing what happened. Anyway J said that K told her that B was going to kill herself and that she cut.
I can't help feeling a tiny bit responsible, if it's true. I mean i've been cutting since i was 18, B was 13/14 She knows that i cut. So maybe she got it from me. And what if this isn't the first time, and she's been doing it for a while. Is it my fault? Also if it's true obviously i don't want my younger sister doing this. I know what kind of pain she must be feeling. I don't want that for her. I don't know what to do. I can't talk to her about it, cause i'm not supposed to know. J isn't supposed to know. And i know i'd feel really ****ed off if i found out my family knew i cut without me telling them.
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