hah i just moved back with my mom this past fall
i can so relate to that stress!
it has made me feel really inadequate and like i lost my independence
i know that i am actually the same person and no less successful or independent or anything but it's hard to make myself believe it lol
and i am so sorry that you have broken up with your boyfriend and had your daddy move
mine just moved across the country in september and it's really awful feeling like my fam is so spread out
i still try and call a lot and i email him
can you still call him sometimes? get a phone card? email contact?
about your bf and all that, i'm so sorry
but those 3 years, that was you staying safe and getting through that
sure he supported you but recovering from SI is something you do on your own and nobody can do it for you
you did it then and you can do it now even if he isnt in your life
you can still call somebody and talk to them though, if you feel triggered, like a friend?
maybe now is a good time to get a therapist, too? something to think about. i just started the process myself and i have my second appt tomorrow and even though i just started it feels kind of nice to know i am not alone and that there is somebody out there whose job is to help me
xxxooo
callie
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