[shellz1986]

Hi there,
I have a very strange and emabarrassing problem with i am worries to tell my dr about. It is a bit complicated but i will try and explain. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder about 5 years ago after haveing severe emotional problems since i was ten.

Recently i have been very obssessive abotu people and it is starting to ruin my life again. I am a university student in my third year and have a very busy schedule of classes. Trouble is this problem is starting to affect my attendance to these classes.

Anyway the problem is that i obsessively worry aboout my GP. Over the past month i have had to phone the surgery to make appointments with him, which i cancel half an hour later, juat to check that he is at work and that he is alive. I also add 15 minutes on to my journey to uni every morning to chanck that his car in in the carpark (this is especially important on days when i have an appointment, and on these days i will check at least 4 times). I also go for walks along his route too and from work jsut so i can see him driving and know that he is ok.

I DONT do this because i have feelings for him ( many doctors in the past have put this problem down to infactuation). It is just that i worry that he will die or quit his job or leave me like so many people have done in the past. I feel that if i dont obsessively check each day that something bad will happen and i will be punished by never seeing him again.

I really dontr know what to do as i am afraid if i tell him, he will think im some sort of weird stalker. I would really love to tell someone, i am just worries of the consequences.

Does anyone else get feelings like this, or am i just a complete idiot?

Shelley