wow.. i wasn't expecting replies at all. but thanks guys.. seriously. Umm well, i dont have a counselor - i've been through a couple of them and they were all awful - didnt have any experience with my situation and i can tell they were disgusting and judging. i've been doing this on and off for like, 8 years... and sometimes i wanna stop.. and i do.. sometimes i wanna stop, and i cant.. and sometime i dont see the point in trying to stop because i like the way it looks.. its complicated. err i dont make sense.
Then.. with the other issue.. i just recently moves out of my parents house a couple of months ago. I live by myself.. dont really cook.. and i've lost weight - oh and i'm a dancer [ballet, jazz etc] and i love the fact that i lost weight.. [i've always been thin but now i'm like.. thiiiiin] and its better for dance and i look better and now i'm obsessed with it and i choose not to eat when i'm alone. see here is the biggest problem -- i'm fully AWARE of my problems, i'm a psych major in college!! i KNOW EVERYTHING. but i just.. dont care! i like it!! and its not like the kinda thing where i go around telling people to make attention for myself, because i'm very private and wouldnt dare confessing this to someone i knew.. but .. i duno.
does this answer the questions?
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