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I CAN'T FACE THIS.
TO MY MOM: YOU STUPID F**KING IDIOT. I HATE YOU. WHY DO YOU WANT ME TO BE PERFECT? NORMAL? MAYBE I'M DEPRESSED, BUT SO WHAT? I DON'T WANT YOUR CARE I DON'T WANT YOUR CARE I DON'T WANT YOUR CARE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M TIRED OF YOU. ALWAYS WATCHING ME. EXPECTING ME TO SCREW UP. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW THAT FEELS? IT JUST MAKES ME WANT TO F**K MY ARMS UP EVEN MORE. EVERY PART OF ME HAS SCARS. EVERYWHERE. AND YOU JUST STAND THERE AND STARE AS THE WORLD CRUMBLES TO ASH AROUND ME.
TO MY DAD: I HATE YOU TOO, ALWAYS EXPECTING PERFECTION FROM ME. NOTHING I DO IS EVER FREAKING GOOD ENOUGH. EVER....EVER, EVERY EVER!!!!!!! INSIDE I'M SCREAMING AND CRYING AND I WON'T BE HEARD BECAUSE I'M ON MUTE. DON'T YOU EVER CHANGE THE VOLUME ON ME. I'M JUST FINE THE WAY I FREAKING AM!!!!.
why.......why are you torturing me like this....you've never believed anything i say and now you think i want to die.......why??
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