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starting_over · 12-06-2007, 08:50 PM

Im not sure what is really ok and what isnot on here. i read the rules but im still not completely sure. Anyway i am have not cut seriously in 2 months, the last time nearly killing me. I have not sied in like 2-3 weeks but i am feeling really bad right now. I am so overwhelmed right now and i am not sleeping well at all, due to the stress im sure. The thing is my i have been cutting so long that all my cutting requires medical attention now, although i dont go anymore. the last time my husband found me and called ems. I am scared because i know that all it takes is 1 cut to permantly injure you or kill you, even if that is not your intent, so i know if i cut it will bad and i dont know what the consequence might be whether another permanent disability or even death. Im so scared because the most dangerous person in my life is me and no matter where i hide i will always be there. I just want to be ok and im not. I am working really hard to stop my si behavior with my therapist, but it seems th elonger i go w/o cutting the worse i feel. Im so confused right now. Please if anyone else knows what to do help me ok. Thank you for listning to my bs.

12-06-2007, 08:50 PM	#1
starting_over double blessed, double time Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Texas I am currently:	HELP! Im afraid of me and what i will do Im not sure what is really ok and what isnot on here. i read the rules but im still not completely sure. Anyway i am have not cut seriously in 2 months, the last time nearly killing me. I have not sied in like 2-3 weeks but i am feeling really bad right now. I am so overwhelmed right now and i am not sleeping well at all, due to the stress im sure. The thing is my i have been cutting so long that all my cutting requires medical attention now, although i dont go anymore. the last time my husband found me and called ems. I am scared because i know that all it takes is 1 cut to permantly injure you or kill you, even if that is not your intent, so i know if i cut it will bad and i dont know what the consequence might be whether another permanent disability or even death. Im so scared because the most dangerous person in my life is me and no matter where i hide i will always be there. I just want to be ok and im not. I am working really hard to stop my si behavior with my therapist, but it seems th elonger i go w/o cutting the worse i feel. Im so confused right now. Please if anyone else knows what to do help me ok. Thank you for listning to my bs.