...being bullied and persecuted by my peers over more than a decade...
...In my case, each trauma added onto the original one of not feeling like I belonged in the world, and that people don't want me here. This is something that I have internalised, and attack myself with very often...
I know the feeling. I have been bullied (emotionally/mentally/physically) by peers for about 10 years or so, and I'm almost 17 now. It got worse in secondary school and none of my "friends" seemed to notice, or even care. Even though I'm not in the situation where I can be bullied now, I still have the flashbacks, especially out in public, seeing someone that used to bully me or even just hearing their names trigger them sometimes. When I was in hospital I often talked of letting the bullies win once and for all. I still do think of it.
*trigger*
Is there any reason I get flashbacks of when I was SH-ing too? Just wondering.