Woah, when I first came on RYL, I didn't think I would be posting a thread with the possible trigger of abuse on it...
I found out from my older step-sister that I was once beaten by my Mum, The next day I was 'Black and Blue' and it was so damaging to think that they could do that to a baby...let alone me!!
I am doing some of work with my hypnotherapist to help me remember...the family therapist thinks I am suffering from a traumatic event (although I do not have the disorder) It just sums up everything...why I don't like being hugged by my mum, why I hate babies crying (I know most people do but I find it physically painful to hear/watch) and why I do that wierd thing with my teddies, for example, if I accidentally drop them or something I would pick them up, hug them, say sorry, and then kiss them. (I know that sounds crazy but hey, that's the way I am...) If this is the 'traumatic event' then what do I do to get over it? 'cause the family therapist seems to think it'll heal on its own...I'm so shocked about it...
