Hey, thanks for replying! I got my first lot of anti-depressants yesterday, after a wait for blood test results etc. So I'll see if they work. Rather scared of the idea.
After a bit of thought, I have to agree with you. Therapy does tend to make things worse. Going on to sessions twice a week now, how exciting. Yesterday I spoke to her about suicide, living for other people and not really feeling that I deserve to live. She answered me like it was an option.I was so confused and scared. Surly they're supposed to discourage it?
I'm scared to ask for help from other people, not my psychologist. They all seem so busy with their own lives. I don't want to put any other stress on anyone. That line about the therapists being out of work made me laugh. ^^
I write (Poems; Journals; Stories), draw and paint. Those were my old coping methods which just don't work anymore. Now I sleep. Block out my mind and get away from myself. Don't know what else to do.
I'll hang in her, for now. Just to see if it will go away. I hope it does. Thanks for the support. Really. It means a lot.
Thanks. I love the penguin... Makes me laugh every time I see him looking at me.
xox
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