You are not alone in this. I'm pretty sure I've been depressed since I was 10. I never got help until I was in college and then it was only for family issues. I've been in and out of therapy quite a few times but it was always for something specific. I'm currently in therapy right now and finally decided to tell my therapist EVERYTHING and be totally honest. Because of that, I figured out that I don't really know what it's like to be happy, I am very rarely happy, and my idea of a normal mood would be pretty grim compared to most people's. I'm resigned to being on medication and in occasional therapy for the rest of my life. I wish I could be more optimistic about the long-term outcome for me but I just can't.
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