[Velvet]

They said it would get better. They said I would stop feeling like this. They sent me to therapy, and I went. I spoke, to a point, got a bigger support group. They said I was doing everything right. I should be getting better but I'm getting worse. Without therapy I could go months without cutting and I got through the day with energy to spare. Now I cut everyday, can barely get through the day, I can't work, I just can't function anymore. My mind drifts to how many sleeping pills it would take to kill me. Today almost became an attempt so I slept the entire morning to stop being with myself. It was never like this before. Aren't I supposed to get better? I don't know what to do anymore. I can't ask for anymore help because I feel it's selfish as they're helping me as much as they can. Help?