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Support needed..
I was in the chatroom speaking to someone and it gave me the courage to speak out and ask if i'm able to get abit of support just now..
Recently i was raped by a family friend and still haven't came to terms with whats happened and i won't allow myself to accept whats happened. I'm seeing my family crumbling apart infront of my eyes because of it and it's making me feel guilty because it's my fault this is happening. I know the rape itself wasn't my fault, my parents and boyfriend helped me accept that, but I still find myself making up excuses for 'him' as to why it's happened. I just won't let myself come to terms with it and I just feel completely numb right now. My parents want me to speak to someone but I feel until i'm able to accept whats happened and come to terms with it i'm not able to speak to someone to over come it. My life just consists of self harming and putting a front on for other people so they think i'm coping. I'm just thinking wtf is the point anymore? You get so far in life then you get thrown 10 steps back again for what exactly? I'm just going to die anyway and going on like this is an never ending battle which i'm never going to win anyway. Just don't see the point in life, or anything anymore
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