The reason I cut again was because I've fallen completely in love with one of my best friends. I kept listening to the song Nicest Thing by Kate Nash and I just couldn't handle it anymore. It's so hard having these feelings for someone who doesn't feel the same way back. But she's one of my best friends so I don't want to distance myself from her.
I also don't want to talk to her about this because I don't want to burden her. I'm going to see my counselor on Thursday and I'll tell her about it. All of my friends know I have a history of cutting but I didn't tell any that I had a slip up. Although I think my best friend saw my cut tonight. I'm kind of hoping that she did so I don't have to tell her. I think she also saw my scissors near my bed. We'll see what happens..
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