[sicknessdollie]

I have the detached, far away, dull pain... it hurts, but it's like i get totally depersonalized when I do and I feel absolutely nothing but a dull, far away ache... like I'm just aching, watching someone else bleed and be in pain, like it's not me... Atleast, most of the time... sometimes it's just a momentary sting, then nothing... but... usually it's what I described above. Hope that made sense. I used to feel the pain and love it... but it's been so long since I started, that now I just go numb to it... I don't know.. it's really hard to describe.. :(