[Red Riding Hood]

Last night I tried to kill myself, and again today.

This isn't uncommon for me, as I often have a spate of suicidal urges, then recover for a bit, then fall down to them again.

But this is a bit scarier, it's the closest I've ever got. Today I was well aware I could die and I was fine with it, I was actually content with knowing "all this" would be over.

I'm wondering how much longer it will take for me to finally go through with it.

I don't know what to do from here. I feel telling people -in real life - is pointless, they'll only want to save me and I don't want that, I'm not really committed to that.

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Thank you for reading.
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