Hiya becky,
it sounds to me like you do have real problems. Wanting to have any kind of pill like you do sounds scary to me.
My advice to you would be to look up the web site for either alcoholics anonymous or narcotics anonymous. They have little cards on the web sites that have 12 or 20 questions that you can ask yourself to see if you have a drinking or substance abuse problem. You don't have to tell anyone or show anyone. Even if you don't want to quit, that's okay. Since you are starting to ask about it, it seems that you are worried.
You're not too young to have problems. I've seen teens in meetings. I saw teens participating on stage at an international aa convention. And the stage was in a baseball stadium!
I'm an alcoholic with 13 years of recovery. I was in denial for months, including the first month of aa meetings I went to. Hope this helps!
If you have any questions or want support or just want to talk, feel free to pm me.
*gives you a hug*
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