Sounds like Bipolar Disorder to me, big time. I relate to quite a few of the things you say. I have the paranoia of people watching, the "God"-like feeling of invincibility. You need some meds really. Bipolar disorder is an organic brain disorder that can't be treated by therapy being the main treatment. Medication is your ticket out, I'm afraid. Get a good doc, a good therapist, and stick with treatment. It's all that has worked for me.
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