My doctors told me to call the Crisis team, but once I get to that date, that will be too late, hence why taking an OD the day before would keep me safe from myself.
My doctor knows, they are not bothered. They are just pretending to do stuff towards making me ok but really they want me dead.
Once I get an idea in my head I have to go at least some way to following it through because otherwise I dissociate and do it anyway. :| So I have to find either a, a compromse, or b, a way to be safe.
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