ok...scared.
im not right.
i havent called anyone yet.
my mother should be waking in the next few minutes.
i plan to have a conversation with her and see if she notices anything wrong??
i seem to be going back and forth between different places, times, days, etc.
im trying to stay rational but i blew that through the roof already.
im trying to think it through.
i think im experiencing some extreme dissociation??
my above post has NOW frightened me.
it wasnt scary when i made it but NOW it is.
could this be "the" break? mentally?
thought id already been there.
i need to sleep.
but i dont have my sleep meds. but good news..this time it ISNT my fault.
my doc ran out of samples and my insurance will not cover the med.
so....ive taken benadryl hoping to relax a bit.
yeah...i do need sleep.
this cant be going in the right direction.
i feel so freaking disconnected.
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