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Plastic Surgery...
So i'm having plastic surgery to remove the scars on my wrists. 10th of April... and i'm scared. I've had operations before and stuff but the surgeon (he was a lovely guy) said the scars may come back. I said one of the main reasons i want it done is to remove all the scar tissue itself cause i got told it goes down to the bone and if I ever did anything to them again i'd be in deeeeeep doodoo. So yeah, it sucks just a tad cause like... all of a sudden i want to cut. You know... after i've had the surgery there's no going back. I couldn't do that to myself. Nor to my fiance or my parents who are paying for me to have this done. I asked them and they were so shocked that that was what I wanted! But I DO want it. I want it for me. The scars will never truly go. But at least with this surgery I have a chance for them to fade. As they are now it could take up to ten years for them to fade! So yeah... i don't even know why I'm writing this... maybe it's because I want someone else to feel sorry for me too lol i'm tired of feeling sorry for myself :P plus i'm out of diazepam and i'm wanting to sleep. My fiance is away for the night. My kitten is being entertaining though... stealing my rings which are off right now and is now currently sitting on my back (i'm lieing on my bed) and cleaning my hair... so yes. Please feel sorry for me so I can feel better about feeling sorryfor myself....
SOrry this post is such a waste of time. Just need support I guess...
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