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Old 26-02-2008, 03:52 PM   #57
Small_Black_Flower
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I dont know whether this is similar to what you guys experience, from the thread i guess so, I got told today I was dissasociating.

I feel like my dead twin sister is living inside me, i dont know why i feel this but she talks to me and she hates me a lot. i think she is angry because i survived and she didnt.

i started talking to her i suppose when i was being bullied, she was comforting then, but now (i think because i have friends) she has become really angry and i guess she is "bullying" me. she makes me harm myself and makes me do and think stuff i wouldnt normally.

im really getting scared that she might take over, because usually she only comes out when I am on my own but on sunday she came out at my friends house and apparently she made me self harm while i was there.

i cant actually remember anything about what happens when she "arrives" but it is starting to scare me. i dont know what it is about.



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