I just feel ready to die. I'm so destructive at the moment. My attendance at work has been a little patchy as of late and I'm in a job in which people freely back-stab etc in order to move up the ladder. I'll be seen as weak. I don't even feel able to go back to work next week.
I'm back on Venlafaxine but have only been back on it for about a week or so and I know it takes time but I don't want to give it time.
Have spoken to and seen the crisis team so many times this week (including yesterday when they thought that I had managed to break my hand/wrist) but I feel so frustrated by it. I don't seem to be able to connect with them because I am a private person and they want me to all of a sudden spill everything to them. I know that they find me difficult to get on with and probably dislike me nearly as much as I dislike me.
I feel trapped and alone and have no way out.
Thanks for taking the time to chat!
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