hey babe. You aren't wasting space, i promise.
I can relate to a lot of whta you say. I used to feel like no-one would notice if i was gone, and at my worst time my sister was about to have a baby...i was utterly convinced that the baby would be able to replace me, so that no-one would feel sad i was gone.......
it wasn't until i finally told someone about this (the charge nurse in my psych unit) and she said your sisters baby doesn't matter Ruth. there will be a Ruth shaped hole in everyone's lives, and nothing and no-one will be able to fill that then i realised. It didn't change how suicidal i felt, but it meant i could no longer justify my suicide as not hurting anyone around me.
I'm sorry you hurt so bad. DO you know why?
Please keep talking to everyone on here..we care.
You are not as invisible as you feel. I promise
Ruth
xxxx
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