[Snorkmaiden]

Today is my 8th day of not cutting. I made a deal with my boyfriend. He really wants to quit smoking pot so we have this whole "you quit, I quit" agreement. He's doing really well and not smoked in 8 days. He had a minor thing yesterday when we were sat in the same pub as his ex dealer and he had a pocket full of spare money but I tried my best to reason with him and we left without him buying any and he later thanked me for my support. All good stuff I hear you say... I feel really tense right now. Nothing has happened to set me off, I was just sat looking at my healing wounds and really wanted to do it again. I mean REALLY wanted to. I'm sure you know the feeling. But I didn't. I did some artwork I'd been promising him for a while which kept my mind off it for an hour but soon as I finished, thoughts came back. So I thought I'd try the same kind of talk it thro in my "hour of need" as it were. But no. Thats never gonna happen. I can't blame him, he's got his own s**t to deal with and he really doesn't get it, although he is very supportive in his own way.
Anyway. Point is, this is all just to keep my mind occupied til I go to bed. So I'm sorry if I wasted your time at all. I guess I just had to rant.
Goodnight
xx