don't go away that would suck
you're doing the right thing thinking of distractions
maybe make a list of things you can do like laundry or cleaning or writing or come on here and talk to people - chat is always on if the boards are quiet
it sounds like you really need some help because you clearly feel like crap and you deserve to feel better
do you have a doc that you see? a therapist or something? if so call them. or call a friend/family member or something
you shouldn't be alone
if you dont have a safe person to call and you feel like you want to do something really drastic, call a crisis line like rachel said or go to the er and tell them and they will help you
by the way as a total side note i could totally relate to what you said about cutting and then laughing in your room afterward and i want to thank you SO MUCH for writing that because i thought i was the only one who ever laughed at really inappropriate times like that and it makes me feel better to know that i am not the only one who has ever done that so thanks! that was probably a weird thing to say but hey whatever at least i maybe distracted you for a few more seconds right? lol ;)
be safe and keep fighting because you are worth fighting for
xxxooo
Callie
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