[cocainecalls]

i was sober from blow for a good two months with the intention of staying sober but i relapsed last week and i remember sitting there and thinking how perfect it was, almost like the first time i did it and couldnt figure out what i liked so mcuh abotu it. even now i couldnt tell. but i learned that i liked it better once or twice on a rare occasion then in excess the way i was doing it before...maybe/hopefulyl i can keep the rare occasion thing going...