[*..life in pain..*]

I went to my therapist today and she told me(after the discussion with a psychiatrist)that i have to be with an adult all the time, but if thats not possible, i will have to go to a hospital.i don't know how i feel.I can't be watched all the time.I can't live without SIing.does it mean that i can't SI??they say that my case is serious and that i can't be alone.i don't wanna be with people all the time and i definitely don't wanna go to a hospital.i wish i had never told my therapist about my suicidal thoughts.things wouldn't be so complicated.now i make everyone sad.my mom says that she needs me.she has called all her friends, asking for hospitals and psychiatrists.we haven't found anyone yet.i don't know.sorry for this post.im just so confused and frustrated and i need some support or anything.sorry.