I don't think its weird. I know some people hate the idea of hospital, but sometimes when I'm feeling very very low (e.g planning suicide, cutting every minute of the day, non stop crying)
I just desperatly want sombody to acknowledge that I'm *seriously* a danger to myself and that I need *proper* help. That is 24 watch lol
I just think that I need to go somwhere safe where sombody is finally recognising that I'm not ok.
In fact I get very frustrated with the mental health services here
I understand that they want to keep people out of hospital if they can help it, but it really pisses me off somtimes when I think about how *desperate* and close I am to suicide yet when I confide this in my CMHT they say..
why don't you distract yourself by reading a book?
grrrr. I think its actually incredibly hard to get admitted into hospital,
I was left to the point where I was hearing voices and wondering into traffic before they admitted me. And even then I had to beg the doctor in A+E. Really annoys me to think about it.
erm...I've rambled, what was I saying?
Oh yeah, totally understand where your coming from!
I think with me it's partly out of a need to keep myself safe, partly to give my mind/body a rest and partly to have people acknowledge how bad this all is .........
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