I have realised now that Ive lost control. My cutting used to always be in response to something bad or just something I couldn't deal with at the time. I don't know if it's due to events of this year so far or if it would have happened anyway but I now know I'm addicted to cutting. It's all I think about and given the slightest excuse its what I do. I'm so ashamed. I hate that I do it but I just can't seem to help myself. I always seem to have an excuse for it. I realise this may sound really silly to a lot of you who have actual problems and "reasons" to do what we do but I can't seem to get my head round it all. My partner is currently trying to quit his own addiction(pot) so I know he understands the basic idea, he just doesn't get how one could be so obsessed with harming themself and I feel bad trying to talk to him when he's got enough on his plate already.
So. Here's my admission of guilt.
I have cut on 3 seperate occasions this week. None of whichwere anything bad or triggering, it just kind of hapened because I felt it should at the time. I have the biggest guilt trip just moments after, but I don't know how to stop.
I am an addict.
I need help to quit.
