If I was to move out even with a student loan and a job things would be veeeeery tight. It would also mean me not being able to go on holiday with a friend, and that's what is keeping me going.
I don't trust easily and just really don't see the point in counsellors. My two best friends (who sadly live on the other side of the country) are better. Not only can they empathise, they let me cry and hold me and don't make me feel stupid and pathetic. I makes me feel terrible that I go see them and basically the whole time is spent focussed around me. They they it doesn't matter, they don't mind, they'll do anything to make me happy, but it's not fair on them.
I was considering dropping out of uni for this year and then repeating the year. But with the end of the year being so close I really don't want to. And it'd mean not getting to go on a field trip with all my friends. And repeating would mean I'd not know anyone in the class and second years aren't the most welcoming of groups, everyone has their little groups of friends and don't need anyone else.
As for revision, if I manage to do any at all it's something ridiculous like 5 mins at a time and then a 15 min break. Not the most productive of ways, but better than nothing. Most of the time I can't even do that though.
My friends don't understand really. And I moan and whinge at them enough. It's basically a constant thing, and that's not fair on them. If only my best friend lived closer *cries*
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