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Damn
Over the past yearish things have gone from bad to worse to even worse. I used to be able to cope with things by myself. I've never really needed much in the way of support cos I just needed myself. Now that's all changed. I don't go through a day without crying. The ED I managed to get over has came back with a vengeance. The cutting and scratching is becoming more and more common. My legs are the worst bit of my body and now they're even worse since they've been covered in cuts and scratches. My friends notice that I don't eat, they tell me how thin I am but I'm not at all. They must notice the red scratch marks up my arms too. They tell me to cheer up, but it's not that easy.
Uni is falling apart. This time last year I was getting straight As/firsts, now I'm lucky to pass. I try so hard to do the work but end up sitting staring at the screen or the book and just curling up and crying. I have had to leave lectures and labs so I can go cry. My friends don't know how to help me, or don't care, I don't know.
There's so much other stuff going on and I can't cope. My head is so messed up.
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