I took them in with me and they didn't find them when they searched my stuff, they really are crap at knowing where someone would hide blades.
I last cut on sunday and its been contsantly on my mind. I only have escorted leave from the ward but the person escorting me today dropped me off outside so i went to the shop and bought more razors.
I cut again, badly and it was like the biggest relief ever. I'm waiting for a&e to call me over to have stitches now. The staff aren't very impressed with me. I probably won't be allowed off at all now. They searched my room and took all the razors but i still have one hidden, i really want to do it again now but its the only one i have so i have to save it.
God i think i'm going mad.
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