Hmmm, I've just been thinking. I'm a self harmer, I'm also on painkillers long term. It's right that they do act via endorphins. Strong painkillers are structurally similar to endorphins and self harm causes a massive sudden release of endorphins and adrenaline into the blood. You'd have thought from that I'd become addicted to painkillers as I have selh harm, but I'm not an the slightest. I don't feel a 'high' off them anymore, yeah I do when I first start on a new drug but don't after a while yet I don't have to cut deeper for the same release so I dunno why I'm addicted to it really but then again I am the girl that decided to give up chocolate and went through withdrawal with it and that also causes a release of endorphins.
I get a high of SH like nothing else and thats whats making it so hard for me to give up (that and the fact that I'm going through a really rough point in my life at the moment too).
God I miss cutting so much at the moment
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