Thank you.
I'm just feeling really depressed today. And anxious, if my heartrate is anything to go by.
Never having had a relationship, and coming to the end of my optimally fertile years, it was also distressing for me to be surrounded by couples attending the Infertility Clinic that was running at the same time. I have a lot of grief and sadness about my eternal partnerlessness and eternal childlessness. And I could really have done without a constant 2 hour reminder of this, to then feel discarded and disregarded.
This is maybe why my head aches and I feel close to tears, but cannot cry.
I really hate my father right now, or rather, I hate what he did to me.
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