Heya guys,
I'm new to this emailing, but have been going through the pain of self harm and domestic violence for the past ten years. I have come to the stage where i no longer understand what is what, i've lost track of who i am and what is the purpose in being here in the first place, i work hard, play hard, but in a false sense. Always a long sleeve shirt, if not a long questionaire from people. I,m sick of being so different, seeing people with no scars, scared to show people who the real ****ed up person is dwelling within. What do i say?
To me i'd rather be taken by the grim reaper, and my god i have tryed, screaming, pain, mental homes, does it ever stop. For twenty years i have been brought up with the domestic violence that no one should see, and for the past ten years i have brutally indulged self harm, to the extent of hospitalisation and major surgery. I now want my scars to disappear, hence i have more surgery coming up. Why can't people understand? I would love to meet someone near me who i can talk to, its ****ing lonely out here. I can only hope that the second lot of surgery makes a difference, or else i'll always be a freak.
Thanks. NBN.
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