I don't know what's happened to her now,nobody's telling me anything.
I want to be with her so bad. We was meant to be going town tomorrow,sunday is
our day. I've not told my mum yet,i've still told her i'm going town tomorrow,but i'll be on my own.
I HATE MYSELF.
Maybe there is other stuff going on with her that i don't know about,maybe she's not telling me everything. But i know for sure,she wouldn't have took an o/d if i never self-harmed. She's took a few before this,only told me,this is the only time i've phoned the ambulance.Only time i feel like crap as well.
I am going to speak to her when she gets out,well she may be already but nobody tells me fxcking anything.
I'm sorry guys xxx
Thanks a lot xxx