[Absi]

I wish you were still here. I need you so much right now, you mean so much to me I don't know why you went, or where or how. I wish you would let me know, i need to know that you don't hate me.

I love you with all my heart, yet I shuold hate you for leaving me, leaving me when i needed you more than anything i have ever need before. I want to be with you I want to hold you hand, to look deep it to your eyes.

I want you to be the first thing i see and smell in the morning and last thing at night.

You are my world and you can't even see it since you left me.

I love you so much, so much it hurts, so much it feels like my chest is going to explode.

If only we could of been together, we would have been amazing, we could have fought the world together, we would have done so much. Instead you left without explanation, leaving me wondering what happened.

I wonder if you are dead. I hope your not, I hope I will see you one day in the future, may be things will be different, may be she will have gone, may be we cuold be together. You could hold me and make everything better, you could kiss away the pain. You would protect me from the world and that hate that is out there and I would do the same for you.

I would do anything to have you back inmy life.

I need you. I want to see you, I want to touch you, I want to smell you and I want to hear your voice. I want to fill all my sense up with you. And never let you go ever again.

You were my rock, but you went when I was unstable and then my world fell apart. And you don't even know how bad I was and am. I was happy, truely happy when i was with you. knowing that i would get to talk to you in the evenings got me through the days.

I want you, I still do and I think I always will. I don't think I will ever be able to let you go. No guy will ever be as good as you.

You made me feel alive, you made me feel pretty, loved and special.

You made the bad things not feel as bad, your greatness opver shone them. When you were in my life I had happy days. happy weeks, happy years. I just wish I could go back to those times, when we were me and you.

I wish there had been an US. maybe ther still can be.

I hope you think of me often and miss me.

I want you back in my life.

I love you so much.

James..........please come back to me.