[*Grey-Glam*]

Dear Megan, at 13,
I know your life is difficult right now, but they will stop. Until you finally get away from them, no, it's not going to go away. They'll always be laughing at you because of it. You're getting mad, dealing with it in other ways. It will start to come out more next year, they will see how angry they make you. The tables will turn and they will be afraid of you. However, don't make that your persona, it shouldn't define who you are. Don't let it. Be you. Those thoughts of cutting yourself? Leave them alone, don't do it. You shake them off all the time and well done, really well done, you'll realise in a few years how serious that can get and I can tell you you'll be glad you did shake them off.
None of this is your fault. There is nothing wrong with you. Stop listening to them and believing them, they know it upsets you and that's why they do it, they think you're an easy target, and that's all there is to it. They're pathetic, and you'll see, and smile, in a few years when your life goes somwhere and theirs doesn't.
Don't take it out on your friends. They don't deserve it, stop yourself now because you'll turn into what you hate very soon, and it will take you a long time to rectify that. Two of the friends you have now will still be your best friends in five years, so don't mess that up?
That diet? Go for it, but stick to what you're thinking now. Cutting down food more than that will get dangerous, and it will get dangerous very quickly. If you find yourself there, people are looking out for you, listen to them when they tell you you don't need to get any thinner. With this, you have a chance to prevent something ahead of you that will be with you for years and possibly the rest of your life. Take that chance. If you don't, well, you hate hospitals don't you? You'll end up there. You don't just stay one night either, so watch yourself, okay?
Stop worrying that you're not interested in boys yet everyone else seems to be. You will be, and you'll meet someone you'll hold special to you for years to come. But, do realise there's a line, wake up and realise that point where he's messing you around, if you don't, it'll go on far too long and believe me it will do damage. It will be hard to accept, and don't let it push you over the edge, but things get better with time, I promise, don't lose your hope. The experience will teach you an important lesson. That guard you've always got up? Don't let it down, you live to regret that, over and over. Learn your bloody lesson, because if you don't all you get is more of what you're afraid of.
One last thing, enjoy being a kid, because at 13 you are, and life gets a lot more difficult.
Love Megan, at 18.



Jesus, I have a lot to say to myself. Oops.
In one of those moods at the moment ha.