Dear 13 year old Sian,
stop hiding who you really are, be who you are with your friends. laugh, joke, be a bit crazy. stop being so shy, or when you decide you want to be yourself, you'll never break away from being 'the mute'
stop hurting yourself when you get upset, it might only be every so often now, but if you dont stop now, youll be doing it all the time in 5 years time.
stop refusing school, youll regret it when you know you have to leave. youll miss out on friends, and social events, and thats something youll never be able to get back.
dont waste so many tears on dad, hes always going to be a crap parent, but hes not a bad person. take it as it comes, but never rely on him, stop doing that right now.
dont be too hard on yourself, you really arent as bad as you think. work on the anger with the counsellor mum got you, trust and use them, if you dont work with them now, youll still be in counselling 5 years down the line.
stop relying on people who dont love you, look closer to home, you have a mum and friends who wont leave you. dont put all your trust in one person, cos shes just going to mess with your head.
love
18 year old Sian
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