get a new counseler! not to undermine any1 s credability im sure shes a nice person and perhaps very competent at ther job ,but from what your describing there doesnt fill me with a lot hope ( i shouldnt judge from a few sentances) aand as aboiut symptoms as every 1 described above the impulsiveness ( i gamble for a living) irrational thoughts and very quick mood swings i think patrick bateman puts it best
"There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman; some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable... I simply am not there."
i quite like this one to
" I have all the characteristics of a human being: blood, flesh, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me and I don't know why. My nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip. "
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