i cant stay away from her because we work together and im her boss it makes thing alittle harder but i dont let the personal stuff effect the way i treat her in work. i have tried to make other friends but it is hard because i hate being in groups so it makes it hard to meet people i cant even stand being on a crowded bus thats how bad it gets. i work from 7 am until 4 pm and dont get home until after 5 most days so the only people i spend time with are the ones i work with and most of them are much older then i am. i work in a rehab center so the only people near my age are in the program and employees cant have any contact with them outside of work. i have tried staying away from my friend a few times in the past but anytime she needs me i have to help her i just cant say no when she needs to talk i have to listen . the only thing stopping me from cutting right now is that iam still healing from the last cut that got infected before christmas. istill want to hurt myself just to feel better for a little while i have thought of other ways to hurt myself but i know they wont make me feel the same way but i just want to do some kind of damage to my body i wish this would all just end
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