Thanks everyone. I did a little more of this stupid scratching **** just to feel something last night. It's totally NOTHING, just a little bit to remind me that I still can, or something. I don't know what it's about. I'm having anxiety, like real bad. I think I had a little anxiety attack at work but I'm not sure b/c I've never had one. But I felt like I couldn't breathe, I was shaking, etc. Tomorrow is a big day, I have to testify in court. :( I'm scared. Maybe that's what all this is about. I'm more scared because when this guy doesn't go to jail, it's going to be hell for however much longer I have to deal with him. oh well, I'll get through it, today was ok. I only feel like I made one mistake. I have to stop beating myself up for this. Everyone makes mistakes, I know this in my head but I can't get it out of my head that I CAN'T make mistakes...I want the day to come where I like who I am and am comfortable with the decisions I make and the things that I say.
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