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blondiebear · 16-01-2008, 05:07 PM

You are doing well.

For me, I've decided that alcoholism and self injuring are different diseases. Yeah, they're related to each other. And for me self injuring means i'm that much closer to a drink.

At my 13th sobriety birthday one of my friends told me that I didn't feel like celebrating my birthday because I didn't feel like I deserved it. He was right.

Then last week at a meeting he asked if I was being good to myself and loving myself, knowing i'd si'd a few days before. I said now, that i'd deepened the marks that day. So he said that it was okay, he loves me. Bless him. That's made it possible for me to let the marks heal. It makes it possible to say that I never have to do this to myself again.

SIing is tough to overcome. Very few people understand it.

You are doing fine.

*Gives you a cherishing hug*

16-01-2008, 05:07 PM	#4
blondiebear Bringing back the lost art of Sewing Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: California Confusion I am currently:	You are doing well. For me, I've decided that alcoholism and self injuring are different diseases. Yeah, they're related to each other. And for me self injuring means i'm that much closer to a drink. At my 13th sobriety birthday one of my friends told me that I didn't feel like celebrating my birthday because I didn't feel like I deserved it. He was right. Then last week at a meeting he asked if I was being good to myself and loving myself, knowing i'd si'd a few days before. I said now, that i'd deepened the marks that day. So he said that it was okay, he loves me. Bless him. That's made it possible for me to let the marks heal. It makes it possible to say that I never have to do this to myself again. SIing is tough to overcome. Very few people understand it. You are doing fine. Gives you a cherishing hug
	My husband is my best friend. In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.