[pea soup]

this is the situation....my brother wanted me to buy him beer. i said no because hes just been in legal trouble over alcohol. plus i know the dangers of it and he drinks alot already and hes underage by american standards.

well....he tells me if i wont buy it then he'll just go out with his friends and party.

this put me in an awkward situation. my mother is rarely here anymore because she's getting married, so im kinda his mom figure.

i didnt know what to do. my conscience would not let me buy him alcohol. ive seen him drunk. ive seen him go to jail. i just couldnt do it.

but now hes gone out and god knows what will happen!!!!

so i get to sit here and worry that hes drinking and driving or whatnot.

and i think...damnit if i would have just bought it, he would have stayed here to drink it!!!

please tell me not to guilt trip over this because im going to punish the hell outta myself if something happens to him.

ok...end of nervous breakdown for now.
thanks.