But even if I don't sh now, what's actually going to change? I'm going to go back to uni, back to my parents thinking that I love them. Back to the real world with nothing I want.
I don't know how to calm down. Everything I do at the moment I do wrong or badly or I just ruin. Everything I touch is infected with repulsion. I have no right to think about anything.
I don't deserve the air I'm surrounded by. How do the wicked peole smile so much? How do they manage? AAAAAHHHHHHH - STOP THINKING.
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