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Feel_Good_inc. · 11-01-2008, 08:08 PM

Thanks lottie. really needed to hear the kind words. made me feel a lot better.

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Originally Posted by Tinkerbelle

Would you feel able to discard of any thing you can hurt yourself with? It can be a huge step and just means you have extra time to think if you want to hurt yourself because you won't have anything to hurt yourself with. Some people don't find it possible to discard of their tools and that's perfectly understandable but it is an option which you might want to consider.

I do carry my knife with me a lot recently. but i've tried denying myself of it in the past and it hasn't worked. i've either bitten or scratched my arm with my nails until it bled and in one case i was at work and used a large kitchen knife. keeping the knife away doesn't stop me from harming, just forces me to seek more desperate and dangerous ways to bleed.
probably best i keep this knife with me. if i don't harm than thats great, if i have to, then at least i have something a lot safer than my teeth or a butcher knife.

11-01-2008, 08:08 PM	#3
Feel_Good_inc. I am a leaf on the wind; watch how I soar Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Somewhere, but I'm not really sure I am currently:	Thanks lottie. really needed to hear the kind words. made me feel a lot better. Quote: Originally Posted by Tinkerbelle Would you feel able to discard of any thing you can hurt yourself with? It can be a huge step and just means you have extra time to think if you want to hurt yourself because you won't have anything to hurt yourself with. Some people don't find it possible to discard of their tools and that's perfectly understandable but it is an option which you might want to consider. I do carry my knife with me a lot recently. but i've tried denying myself of it in the past and it hasn't worked. i've either bitten or scratched my arm with my nails until it bled and in one case i was at work and used a large kitchen knife. keeping the knife away doesn't stop me from harming, just forces me to seek more desperate and dangerous ways to bleed. probably best i keep this knife with me. if i don't harm than thats great, if i have to, then at least i have something a lot safer than my teeth or a butcher knife.
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