My parents didnt know until i was admitted to a psych hospital. Now that i have been released they think i am all better which is far from the truth. They dont know that i self harm or about any of my suicide attempts. I moved out of home when i knew that i was sick to prevent them from finding out. All they have is critiscim about me being on meds, like supposedly my reactions are slower when i am playing sport. THey never talk about it and my mum has seen my scars once but she didnt say anything. I told them i am off meds just to get them off my back. They never visited me once when i was in hospital and that was for two and a half years! I get upset too when i see other peoples parents and they are so supportive. When i was an inpatient they had meetings which they called family meetings and one day i lost the plot because they kept calling it that and i was the only one from my family who was going to be present. Its nice to know that i am not alone.
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