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im scared!
im really upset right now, i've been crying forever, now im just numb and this is when i cut. so i got on here to write about it so maybe it would help so far, it isnt.
i am so scared of myself. I AM my biggest fear. as you probably know already i have been a cutter for over 5 years. well now when i cut i sorta black out. if that makes any sense. i wake up with cuts on me sometimes in my room sometimes in the bathroom floor, it scares me. all i remember is sitting down and doing it once, but when i wake up they are everywhere. i know you probably think i am completely insane but its true. so i am my biggest fear becuz i have no idea what i am capable of. i dont know what damage i can do becuz im not there (really) when im doing the damage.
so what do i do? someone please answer this, please!
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